MY THOUGHTS

Good morning from Wales where it seems that spring may have arrived after all…

I’m sitting on my bed having awoken after a beautiful sleep, and I have a pot of tea beside me and want to chat with you before the rest of the world wakes up. It’s so silent that it could be that there’s no one but me left in the world. It feels quite odd and yet very beautiful.

As I said the other day, we – that’s Louise, Jenny, Silvio and I, aided and abetted by Vernon, are changing my site. But what came to me this morning is that I love this cyberspace home, and though at times I’ve thought that I may have to leave it all together and build a new one, I hope we can change what needs to be changed, up-date it and make it more user friendly, but not pull it down all together. So this morning I wanted to share my thoughts on that and where I am with it.

Technological brilliance is not one of my skills, and the workings of websites and such is an area that has been shrouded in mystery, and though I have much respect for it all, I’ve been somewhat  separated from it because I couldn’t really be relaxed with it and therefore couldn’t be myself.  My relationship with it has been strained and dependent upon others, and so , like with any other relationship that has such restraints, it hasn’t always been comfortable.  The new forum however has allowed me to be me, to pop in and out, to meet everyone in the chatty style that’s mine, to say what I think, to share who I am and I’ve so enjoyed getting to know you and you getting to know me.  So… I’m trying now to make that so  throughout the site.  It’s very interesting to me this morning how I’ve been living here on the site confined by some unspoken rules about how it should be.  Then it just came to me in the last few days, and then even more so in my meditation this morning, that actually, there are no rules. No one imposed anything upon me, no one said I had to do it in a certain way, all of that was of my own making, and yet somehow I integrated that as a truth.  Strange.   I felt a bit vulnerable and lost in a world of technology that I didn’t understand and it raised within me old issues of me being a little girl from the north-east who doesn’t know every much and isn’t educated like others and might be found out at sometimes to be an imposter because I don’t quite know how I got here.

So, I’m about to change things.  I don’t really want this it be a place where there are things like ‘my work’ and ‘my workplace’ and ‘my practice’ and  ‘me’, but more a home where you’re welcome to visit me and to meet others and to talk and share, and you can get to know me and come and go and we can just be human beings who talk to each other. I want you to be able to find your way round without feeling lost or stumbling about looking for things.  I want you to be able to pop in  even if you only have a few minutes and feel refreshed and happy and maybe have learned something, shared something, smiled at something, been inspired by something… just as I hope you might feel if you were to visit me at home. Yes, as in my actual, rather than ‘virtual ‘ home there will be some expectations I guess about how we behave with each other, but relationships are built by real communication which engenders trust and openness and sharing.  So I’m up for that and I hope you are too.

We’re going to make some really big shifts if we can…  it might be difficult which is why I thought we might have to move, but we’ll see…  Because I want to make much more available on-line – the School, my new School for Multidimensional Health, etc etc we may outgrow what’s possible here as we shift the focus to a more on-line base.  But I hope we can shuffle around and end up with a beautiful, vibrant space without having to change everything.  I have a wonderful team working with me who know much more about all of this than I do and our aim is that I will be able to be much more available here and that it will reflect my philosophy of loving and living, teaching and learning, giving and receiving and hopefully they will stop me when I talk too much or get out of line.  And that brings me to something else – I love colour and images, so you might find less words and more colour, but let’s see.

While we’re doing construction, changing rooms, having workmen in and out of the building, making cups of tea and  and sitting down for a rest, sorting out how I can be more present here and how you can too, you’ll maybe feel it’s a little odd when you come in.  Please imagine that you’re coming into a house where we’re doing a refurbishment while still living there and hopefully you can look aghast at some of the wallpaper I might choose, then laugh as I take it down and try something else; you might not like the curtains, but be too polite to say so as you would if you were visiting my home.  You might not like some of the guests you find here either, but they’re my guests and I hope you’ll get to know each other and eventually see that we’re all just people with different points of view, different histories, different aches and pains and scars and joys and wonders and thoughts and hopes and dreams and skills and…and…and…

OK – that feels better… now I’m off to have another look around and see what I can cause havoc with now!!!

I would love to leave you with a quotation – you know how I love quotations, but nothing comes to mind right now, even though there’s a whole list of beautiful quotations on the forum, so I will just pop off and be back when I can.

Have a beautiful day and please drop in at The Daily Help in the forum.  Just reading there for a minute or two and sending some love and peace to the world will be like having put a donation for world peace in a box somewhere, and will be much more valuable than money.

Got to go.  Much love

Brenda